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[13 Feb 2005|11:39pm] |
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well i may be back, who knows if its with a vengeance or not. still in spain, dicking around and sometimes even with the wrong things, but what fun would it be if i werent. i feel like i need to restart my life, just sort of wipe everything clear and then rebuild it. first thing that should come with this new life is natalie portman, so if anybody could help me with that it would be greatly appreciated. and how about that picture of me up there, i sometimes wish i still looked like that. i feel getting old really does make everything ugly, oh how bitter we become in our old age. and that is it for now.
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| she's a banzai aphrodite |
[05 Aug 2004|10:43pm] |
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My, my, my, almost a year since the last time I posted. I didn't even realize it had been that long, I guess not having the internet will do that to you. I am really glad that I don't have the internet, because I come over here to my parents and I sit on it all night. I don't understand how I can check my e-mail so many times within 10 minutes. I anybody still reads this thing, then there is a whole lot of new stuff in my life. The problem is, I'm not going to put most of it in here. The only thing I will write about is that in 17 days I am boarding a plane to Spain. This has consumed my whole brain that I have become such a clumsy idiot lately. For example, yesterday I decided to put my eyeglasses on top of my car, and drive away with them still up there. As soon as I hit approximately 35mph I see them fly behind me to be crushed by the car behind me. That wasn't too fun. That's it.
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| my plan |
[24 Aug 2003|12:42am] |
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yesterday i decided that i want to take a trip. not just a local trip, but something that took me away for at least a month, ,preferably two months. this urge was brought on by a friend of my parents from new zealand, who said to me, "hey mate, you should come to new zealand sometime." i thought to myself, why not? but i want to make this trip worthwhile and visit as many places as i can until my money runs out. right now, i am planning to leave in august of next year and go to tahitit, new zealand, australia, greece, spain, czech republic, brazil, mexico, then back home. of course, i am going to be doing this all alone, and on my own research, so i was wondering if any of you have ever been to these places and could give me some tips. thanks.
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[06 Jun 2003|09:46am] |
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i have a very painful canker sore where my bottom lip and gum meets. why are cuts and sores in the mouth so intriguing? seriously everytime something goes awry in my mouth i have to sit there and keep feeling it with my tongue, hoping every five minutes that it has gone away, but of course it hasnt and im just making it worse. 3 finals to go. this has been the first quarter since my first quarter at college that i have been so bored that i cant go to class. i never get bored, or so i thought. ive been so afraid of death lately. i just want to do something. i need to do something. take a trip or something, but im taking a summer school class, so it will have to wait till after that. i havent checked my info and friends list in so long i didnt realize that mike sliff had a journal. welcome mike. im just waiting in my lab class right now, this is the only time i get on the internet. i dont have the internet at my place, i dont even have my computer plugged in. i bought playstation 2 because i had money laying around, played it for 2 days and now it has sat there for weeks. im not sure if any of you who read my journal a year ago still even read it, but if you do then you might remember my anxiety breathing crap that started about a year ago has finally let up. im just getting over it. a fucking year of anxiety, i finally got used to it too, which is probably why its going away. i have a lab quiz in 5 minutes. i honly need 2 more classes to finish my bachelors. so next year i get to fill up on useless classes that only put more numbers on my transcript. my hockey team sucks horribly. every game i just want to leave during the middle of it. well okay. that is it.
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[01 May 2003|12:38pm] |
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hello all. how many people actually read this thing anymore? went to the ducks game last night. its pretty cool that theyre doing so well even though im a dallas fan. im in the computer lab and somebody smells really bad, im pretty sure its this girl next to me. okay, thats it.
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| My Kingdom |
[09 Apr 2003|11:52am] |
just saw this movie last night at the Newport Beach Film Festival. I enjoyed it very much, I recommend it to anyone who enjoys British mob movies. It's based on Shakespeares King Lear and it just all works out really well. One of the best I have seen in a long time. I am going to see Don't Tempt Me(Sin Noticias De Dios) with Penelope Cruz today. Has anyone seen it?
sorry for double post.
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| its best not to be too moral, you miss out on too much life |
[26 Feb 2003|04:21pm] |
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well well well, so livejournal and i meet again. i dont even remember the last time i updated on this thing. i check it now and then and it isnt all that interesting anymore, but i saw ian had updated his for the first time in a while and i decided that i might as well also. basically my life consists of school, april, and dvds. school is school, april and i have been together for 8 months, and i now own 280 dvds. i hardly ever have money because it goes to april and dvd's. i havent been to a show or really kept up with music of any sort in quite some time. im pretty tired of all the hoopla around finding some new great band. ive actually been listening to the radio quite a bit. i just got the new chevelle cd and it is quite awesome. we just got a new roomate about 2 weeks ago, and he lost his job about a week ago so we might need a nwe one, if anyone is interested let me know. so i might possibly keep posting and i might now, we shall see.
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[20 Aug 2002|04:49am] |
i just read this in somebody elses journal:
one of my theories: every girl has had a stupid, asshole boyfriend named mike.
i know a few girls who will agree with that.
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| 3 steps forward, 4 steps back and other variations of walking backwards |
[20 Aug 2002|03:26am] |
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the need for symmetry in my life has gotten way out of whack. i dont know if that is the reason ive had the problems lately. these symptoms that everybody is calling anxiety. i dont know. this has been the best period of my life of this year by far. april couldnt be better for me. but she actually has friends outside of me so i cant have her all the time. when i dont see her, i dont take showers. the longest ive gone is 4 days. when she doesnt see me, she gets ready. when i dont see her im with my movies. when she doesnt see me she is with other people. when im not with her i think about her. when shes not with me she says she thinks about me. when we watch amelie she always cries then gives me a hug and calls me her Nino. she plays the guitar and sings me to sleep then wakes me up again because i have to drive her home. im saving money. for what? i dont know. but im sure it will come in hand soon. Who Is Cletis Tout? is a very good movie. i told april we are going backpacking in europe, she said no way. im still going. im buying a meal plan again this year just so i can have someone cook better food for me. a girl is moving in with me and steve. april doesnt care, but steves girlfriend is blowing a gasket over it. i dont know if i will start writing in this again. depends on how often i get on the internet.
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[10 Aug 2002|11:51am] |
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i ate lots and lots of sushi last night. theres a fly buzzing around here. my sister is leaving for colorado in basically one week. i will have a house all to myself for one week. be back later
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[01 Aug 2002|11:37am] |
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| we make the difference |
[28 Jun 2002|12:19am] |
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it has been a long time since i have written. a lot has happened, maybe not a lot, but a big thing. and at this moment i am happy and sad. happy because i have a girlfriend now, and i really really really like her. her name is april and she looks like amelie. shes adorable. i have spent the last 4 days with her, and it just seems really great. the reason im sad though is because im leaving to mexico tomorrow for 2 weeks. so its like just as things are getting good it goes on hold and in the worst way. im always a pessimist and think that she will forget about me in the 2 weeks. but she made me this little cd case that has her picture on it and other neat little stuff with a note inside that is in the shape of a heart and fits perfect into the cd case. and it just made me happy that she really likes me too. i dont know what to say, thats just the big news. well ill read all of your guys posts in 2 weeks. until then, have fun and drink gatorade.
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[15 Jun 2002|12:58pm] |
 | | Which Recurring Kevin Smith Character Are You?</b></a> Take the test here |
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[14 Jun 2002|12:35am] |
i wrote this for my psychology class and i hope that some of you will apply it to your life. i know that i have been missing out on a lot of things due to not chasing my daydreams.
In “The Revolution of Everyday Life” Henry Miller writes, “The world only began to get something of value from me the moment I stopped being a serious member of society and became myself.” A serious member of society is one who works as a slave in a job. These slaves pray for the day that they retire and never have to go back to work. This picture describes exactly what work is meant to our society. People often work so much that they feel too exhausted to do anything pleasurable and eventually it becomes too late and they die. Stress from work can often take many years off of someone’s life. People need to learn to enjoy life and live for themselves, not others. People who work often come home and watch TV. They often lose their sex drive and all motivation to enjoy the outdoors. TV is screening people from their true life. They need to get away from that and see what is really out there. Enjoy the sun on warm days and the rain during the winter. Many workers sit and daydream about these things rather than sitting in their cubicles. But what stops them from enjoying them? Everyone should go out and chase their dreams and they will realize the joy of happiness beats any material value. As Henry miller did, we should also become ourselves, and that in itself will contribute to society and not lead us to feel worked to death.
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| at last |
[10 Jun 2002|03:30pm] |
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finally i have been diagnosed with my disease. basically it is my paranoia and anxiety. i have been hyperventilating this whole time which has caused my trouble breathing, my fatigue, my numbness, everything that is wrong with me besides actually having a sinus infection for those first two weeks. the doctor said i need to calm down and not take the deep breaths that i try to take. i need a chill pill.
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| rated r for bad grammar and punctuation |
[07 Jun 2002|11:54pm] |
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i dont even know what to say. i felt pretty shitty tonight, having trouble breathing. i guess friday night sisnt the night to hope for lots of livejournal posts to read. i tried to go through other peoples journals but it just wasnt the same. i felt like i was cheating and didnt have the right to do it. it should be one of the ten commandments. i went to the doctor yesterday and she was basically rude to me. she said i have to make appointments with the same doctor because they are all treating me different. well if you could fucking figure out what was wrong with me then all of you should know what the prescription is. so now theyre sending me to a specialist which says "i have no fucking clue whats wrong with you since im obviously not a "specialist" and just dont want to keep seeing you every week." she also got mad at me becuase i wouldnt shoot steroids up my nose. i did it once and wont do it again. arent there always alternatives? give me another medicine just not steroids to shoot up my nose. i really like to yawn. i think its one of the best feelings in the world. along with sneezing, i think someone said that in their livejournal post or something but im pretty sure someone talked about the greatness of sneezing. i really like looking at my phone and seeing missed calls. it doesnt happen that often, usually all i see is the word cock that my friend made as the banner. i never figured out how to put voicemail on my phone. my sister knows but says she forgot so all i get are missed calls. i wish i was a person who didnt give a shit. but i do give a shit. about everything too. i was trying to think of an example but im pretty blank right now. i really like the phrase "in a nutshell." im still trying to figure it out though. i dont think ive ever used it in my life. i think thats all i have to say. im going to fall asleep to Raising Arizona now.
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[07 Jun 2002|04:10pm] |
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my last day of lectures today, now i get to study for my finals next wednesday and thursday. i went and bought stuff today with my paycheck. wasted all my money. i bought my sister her graduation present. i got her stuff from abercrombie and i think the girl worker and i were flirting back and forth but im pretty stupid when it comes to these things. let me tell you why i think this. so i go in and am worried about finding the right sizes, my sister just tells me to buy the smallest sizes. so i ask this girl, she was asian and very cute, if the smallest sizes are small or extra small. so she tells me blah blah, and asks who im shopping for, and i tell her my sister. and she says "that is so cute, i wish my brother would shop for clothes for me." and im just like yeah haha and get nervous. but i finally pick out a shirt and i had noticed her looking my way now and then so i asked her if she wanted to help me find something to match the shirt. and she says yes and proceeds to show me everything that she likes and what she wears and she helped me for about 30 minutes, she even laughed at my stupid jokes and did the little touch on the shoulder thing. then when we have all the clothes picked out she says she will come ring me out at the register, so we go to the register and she lets me cut and she opens the other register for me and gives me 15% off. now i dont know if im stupid, but i was pretty sure she was flirting back to me. and if she was im a dumbass and just left without saying anything to her. that was my excitement for the day though. i just realized that i wrote that all with really bad grammar, oh well.
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[06 Jun 2002|02:30pm] |
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im eating bomb cream cheese cookies
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[06 Jun 2002|12:17am] |
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Today was my last day ever eating meat. I just watched two videos in my psychology class on slaughtering animals, and it was seriously the most shocking, gruesome, disgusting, horrible films i have ever seen. I couldnt even watch parts of it. i cant even talk about it right now. i just think everybody should watch these films. in other news, i got out tonight and had dinner with a girl. she had a boyfriend but i still had dinner with her. i give myself a high five for getting out of the apartment and not thinking im sick all the time. good night
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